Scatterbrainy

yesterday I had a strange flash-back of intense happiness caused by nothing at all.
it was an amazing feeling that was not accompanied by the usual bad after-tasting "but...."
I know people judge me every day, but usually I don't let that get to me
it's first when I am faced with complexion and incomprehension that I take offense




Right now I'm in the middle of a dilemma that is causing me increased mental labor force.
Obviously there is something about me that I am not aware of and others can see.
something that creates confusion, fear or nervosity?
The thought really disturbs me.